Have you been subjected to narc abuse? The term is becoming more and more common these days. What is it like? How does it work? Recently I watched lot of videos, read articles, consulted books. Actually there are so many people who are doing a great job in this area. I will highly recommend videos by Ewa regarding her SOS program against narcissism on YouTube tube channel – Soul GPS to understand it better. All are great.
“There’s a difference between what motivates the narcissist and the whole idea of them having built a defense system. And yes there are people who will lash out and aggress if they are being encroached upon. And I think that those people are mostly the people who have been through a lot of abuse before and it’s a result of a CPTSD when they have just so much stress piled up on their souls that just that one more thing makes them just lash out. That’s not what the narcissist does, the psychopath does. “
You must have been grown up watching people triangulating, manipulating, bullying to get what they want in your family, society and at workplace sometimes even without being aware of it. And it is very different from the desire to express. What actually narcissism is? A narcissist observes and at the same time he is scheming in his mind.
“ They need their supply. They are always thinking. They are always scheming. They are always doing that kind of thing on the back of their head. And sometimes they seem like distracted that they are in their own world. And that’s what they are doing but it’s not emotional . it’s purely predatory. Once you see this for what it is, there will be a moment the thing holistically clicks in your mind, in your emotions in your heart and in your soul and you will see it. That’s a moment of enlightment. You’re gonna start seeing it everywhere. You’re gonna walk down the street and see it. Majority of our human population is pretty fucked up. I must say we are so infected with this virus and it’s mainly coming from the top because psychopaths are ruling our planet. They are the ones who want to be in charge and control and it’s been going on for centuries. And we are at the point of saturation point. It’s in the media. It’s in the movies. It’s everywhere. Everything is about bye, bye, bye,bye. Power and control. Power and control. Power and control.
“No problem, I get this agenda. what we need to do?”
“We need to kill 30000 people and drop few bombs.”
“ Sure. Let’s do it. Do it. Go. Go. You have my perversion. “
That’s the world we are living in. It’s upside down. It’s completely fucked up. And the image of a velcro comes into my mind. It starts low here and bulges up and then it goes back down. And Psychopaths comprise the one end of the spectrum . These are the hardest, the most cunning…like people in the government. Turn on the news and see them. They are all. They are all. And the other side you have empaths, the people who take so much compassion and so much love for this planet. They take on all this suffering. They should be the ones to rule the world. It should be the other way round. So, our world has been stolen from us. And we have in the middle of the bulging belly. I think it’s the combination of the two extremes – of the good and the bad. And people are just confused. Mostly they are exhausted. The system is sucking the blood out of them.”
For a narcissist the person — “narcissistic supply” is just like property with no soul or mind of their own. They keep their shit going on, treating people like something they like controlling and harrassing. They are parasites. Not normal people.
As we can see narcissist are mostly successful people, people in power, anywhere, in family, villages, cities, who want to control lives and keep them like puppets that dance on their tune. Does power make you corrupt? Yes, it does. I have bullied and I have been bullied.
There’s much more information and guidance for it on this YouTube channel which I found very useful. I think everyone must go through it.
Another book I will recommend is – Healing from hidden abuse – A journey through stages of recovery from psychological abuse.
But before that we must learn what is hidden abuse, something we have been doing or allowing others to do which has been damaging us. The fact is it is everywhere sometimes we are not even aware of it. Educating yourself is one of the most important keys.
What worked for me is defining a firm and healthy boundary for hidden abusers and then decluttering. You matter to me or not is decided by how emotionally healthy you are for me. Less is more when it is real and nurturing. Understand the toxicity behind a good behaviour. People inflicting hidden abuse mostly have agendas. They show several forms of silent abuse, demeaning behaviour, belittling us like parasites sucking your soul all the time to feed their narcissistic desires. Apart from this restoring self-trust, building confidence again and letting yourself grow and enjoy peaceful time needs a lot of lone hours, consciously choosing the environment.
I believe that people like me tolerate more and get damaged more because of our narcs tendencies. We expect too much from ourselves and believe to fight it out. Instead of looking for recovery process, we manipulate, try to take control of the situation. The thin line between self-esteem and narcissism is diminished. That’s why education part has been of utmost importance. Enough for now. Later I’ll come with more.
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